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Thursday, June 9th, 2005
10:43 pm	another update so i was looking into my past entries. its cool what a difference a year makes. Dusty is absolutely amazing, i couldnt ask for anymore from a girl. Ya im finally taken. By one hell of a hottie. Its pretty nice. I deserve it. Going to lay down some music with the degenerates for my solo work. should be fun. Zack and greg could be my new lovers. ha ha. just kidding. or am i. -tones check out the new car. sure beats a sunfire. http://www.myspace.com/zbttones (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
3:12 am	"i dont want this to be another apology, time has healed these broken down wounds and im back on my feet. If i see you out, dont be afraid, i know the internet provides muscles you could never have.... so is this how, it will all end. and insincer farwell amongst the best of friends... this has all gone to hell. this has all gone to hell, and with my one last gasping breathe ill scream i hope you choke....." (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
8:24 pm	hello love story Despite the title heading, I haven't found love--well not exactly. Just to bring you all up to speed. I am still working out and am getting rediculously strong. I'm still managing napolis. I'm ranked 634th in the state towards getting a job as a correctional officer (top 20 percentile ;-P) I'm strongly considering the Army(military police). I still play guitar but not like i used to. I am still working on a solo album which is coming along well. I should be making appearances in the following areas in the next few months. Oswego, Syracuse, baldwinsville ( LOL prolly not), Rochester, Los Angeles, Reno, and Las Vegas. Coolness. Ron Testa is still my hero. Eric Gilfus is still my drinking buddy and partner in crime, Justyn Brodsky ... who? weird. Oh yeah, the kid I used to hang out with every day and now I just see when i call him or stop by at the mall :-P. the list goes on but my fingers are tired and i have to take a poop. tones (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
11:19 pm	New Update Hello live journal its been a long time. I thought that I was ok, but somedays are harder then others. I think every day is getting shorter then the last and living life just seems to be a chore id just assume ignore..... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 28th, 2005
12:26 am	hummm obviously im exciting enough to keep leaving posts. w/e. Awesome Party friday. Hanging with indira and the degenerates. what fags... ha ha just kidding. good booze. christy is so hot. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 24th, 2005
5:37 pm	wtf I woke up today and was like WTF.. why the hell am i crying about shit i cant change over the internet. The Tones 6 months ago would have just told you pompous aceholes to fuck off. I need to get back to that attitude. I guess being home has caused me to become pussified. Fuck that. If you dont like me. blow me. And to be honest I really dont give a fuck what any of you think of how i sing or what i play. Its for me, not for you. :-) wow. horrible grammar and punc. but i dont care!!!!!! Yes I am an alcoholic. No, I can't hold on to girlfriends. Ill say that too. So leave something in my message board that will insult me! B/c i just blew all your spots. -tones (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 21st, 2005
2:40 am	ha ha if you all have such a problem. y keep reading... your just going to end up disapointed. thanks for the love. carl.. your my brother... always... ashley... true colours are a bitch... and apparently so are you. good luck with sociology... corey... i thought you stopped reading my journal months ago, when u found out about masturbation?! love tones. (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 20th, 2005
3:36 am	a few things to the readers a few things ppl should know who check my journal... 1. an italian never forgets 2. an italian never lets go of past bullshit 3. its much easier to let go when you arent the one stuck with a 600 dollar bill, t-shirts that are worthless, stickers you should just throw away, a crap website that is still around, and a plethora of other excursions. thank you. -tones (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
3:30 am	yay.. matchbook romance is coo... i like to network... ha ha.. conversation with Ryan of matchbook romance... Fizzlewink4: What u up 2 ADgenrate: not much man. Just playing some online poker ADgenrate: what about you? did you guys have a show tonight? Fizzlewink4: Nicw Fizzlewink4: *nice Fizzlewink4: No we had the day off ADgenrate: ang told me you guys fucking rocked last night in rochester ADgenrate: she was the little hardcore chick with a tattoo on her neck. And I think you'll find happiness in knowing she digs you guys more then hawthorne heights now ;-) Fizzlewink4: It was fun Fizzlewink4: Haha ADgenrate: 8-)=matchbook romance stealing hardcore fans Fizzlewink4: Hahaha we try daily gotta love emo humor.... (Comment on this)
2:48 am	i love updates!!!!! YAY!!!! So reflecting back on last year at this time... it brings me to Daytona Florida. Spring Break 2004... Wow... This is where I met Patti, who was a huge part of my last semester at oswego. Loads of alcoholic induced blazes. Stoned bus rides, vics pizza parlor fight, pissing in the pool (:-P)... hmmm. what else. Pizza DUDE!!! YES!... ha ha. Anyway. It was def. the best senior vacation i could have had. And DEF. the best way i could end my senior year. I also remember... I was supposed to play with HPN for a show brian booked in auburn with fatt at "A Novel Idea"... He gave me shit for blowing off the band to go on spring break. Looking back, Im glad i did... and I sure as hell dont feel guilty anymore. All you ppl who sit back, read, or try to judge me and/or my situation without ever knowing me or who I am... shame on you. And to those of you who I gave advice to/listened to (for hours upon hours i might add) bitch about all these asshole guys--- and now your going to turn around and Pop shit to me over a message board... shame on you too. I'm done playing these online games. And if you dont want to read my journal.. fucking delete it from your friends list. cos ill write whatever the fuck i want to. And some of you should really consider the words you say, cos it could burn you. Anyone who has been my true friend knows I'm as good as they come. Im loyal, Honest, and good hearted. Maybe some of you just bring out the worst in me. The rest, will never know.... -tones Current Mood: contemplative (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
12:47 am	The Anthem to my life Won't face this day and I won't care now, the sunrise promises nothing new Everyday is the same when looking straight ahead Caught in the safety of routine I lose myself again And if only for a moment do I truly feel this way, then suddenly it all becomes something of worth to me Won't face this day and I won't care now, the sunrise promises nothing new And here I will stay with four walls round my heart in a room that won't betray Now that I've gone too far, this escape has caught up with me Everyone's gone They all realized that I stopped caring so long ago that today was only taken for granted And tomorrow's just one more that I believe I deserve Won't face this day and I won't care now, the sunrise promises nothing new And here I will stay with four walls round my heart in a room that won't betray Spent too many hours in this room, leaving the world outside my door In failed attempts to forget about, being frustrated to myself Won't face this day and I won't care now, the sunrise promises nothing new One last time I will watch the sun go down from this window And I won't wait for a better day to walk from all it ever was that I had given up on this road One last step and I will soon be gone (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 24th, 2005
2:31 pm	Day 9 Weight: 183.2 BFP: 22.1% lost more weight then i'd hoped. But need to get that BFP down. -tones (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
9:56 pm	An optimistic update So the last post I made was really depressing. Wow. I want to thank everyone who dropped me a line to wish me well. It was really appreciated. I had NO idea that so many ppl read my journal. For all of you who have been dying to buy my music gear, now's your chance. I'm selling my half stack, my PA, my Monitors, guitar processor, and both of my electric guitars/with hardshell cases. The reason i've decided to down size for the time being is simple. My room hasn't felt like a room since i set it all up. We don't have any other place to put it. And for the time being, half past never is taking a break. Maybe a permanent full band break. But Cj and I will always remain as half past never. He truly is my brother. I don't think he fully realizes how much I appreciate him. For those of you interested in car audio, I am selling my speakers and my amplifier as well. The speakers are JL Audio W3's in a custom fit box. (3 ten inch speakers) and the amplifier is a sony Mobile ES amp. I've decided i dont really want a system in my next vehicle so there really isnt any point to hold on to them. I dont need all these posessions anymore. It seems pointless. I've decided its time to stop living this garage band lifestyle. bah. That doesn't mean im going to stop listening to punk/emo music. I'm just going to stop "Posing" like the rock stars that i listen to. In other news, last night was valentines day. Being that I'm single, I wasn't going to do anything. One of my co-workers Erica didnt have anything to do for valentines day either. We decided to go out. We hit up ides and got EXTREMELY BLASTED. while i decided to sober up b4 the drive, she kept on truckin. We decided on the state diner at 130 in the morning. We ordered, then erica puked. She repeatedly puked for about 15 minutes. Then she got puke on my mom's brand new honda pilot and put two ciggerette holes in it. (my mom was stoked about that). Then I finally got her home, hit on her black friend Jessica (shes very cute, but only 17 so thats a red flag), then got some sleep.. well a little bit anyway. So finally what ive been waiting to put in my journal for some time. I've decided to do a 14 day challenge. And here are the stipulations. 1. No alcohol 2. Lose 2 lb a week 3. Lower my body fat percentage from 24 to 20 or under. 4. Eat NO FRIED FOOD under any circumstances. 5. Drink at least 130 ounces of water every day I determined that my body is in great shape, but i have a beer gut still. it needs to go. Plus I bought a new scale that tells me my weight and my bfp. Every night I'm going to post my weight/bpf for 14 days. Thats it for now. I'm going to isolate myself for the next 14 days so dont ask me to go out for drinks, dont ask me for anything really. Cos this is something I just really have to do. Thanks and wish me luck on my journey!!!!!!! DAY 1: Weight- 187.6 BFP - 24% Body Fat weight: 45.024 Current Mood: productive (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
12:14 am	ehhh... So its been a few days or something since i updated this thing. I don't even know how many ppl read it so who fucking cares. But to highlight recent events... Justyns birthday - justyn forgetting his id 3 seperates times causing trips back to the house - grabbing kim and telling her she was the most beautiful thing alive and not remembering it - snakebits are still the roughest shot to slam - justyn is a loud and emotional drunk - hes finally twenty fucking one... lol We arent playing the 12th.. just to much shit going on. not a big deal. cos we arent a popular band anymore. No time to practice, no time to perform. Maybe its time to hang up the towel on hpn. Im wierd apparently. I guess being noble and honest and consistent doesnt work in todays standards. but waht did i expect. we've never fucking met. so yeah , i guess i dont blame you. I suppose i assumed that when u met me u would think the world of me and what i could give you. nah.. not anymore. And dont take that to heart or to offense, im the fucked up one not you... trust.... i think i should just give up on life. cos it seems to be taking forever..... -some one want to explain to me what its all about, cos i just dont know anymore. Current Mood: crappy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
4:15 pm	justyns 21st birthday Alright so finally the day has come. Justyn is 21 today and I get to take him out and get him wasted legally. It should be a good time. If your in Collegetown, you better call or get a hold of us. Fun times in oswego tuesday. (very cool talk jess). drink drunk drank... "dude i wasn't flirting, i touched her tits... theres a difference" :-) Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
1:58 pm	kinda sleepy still... well last night was the first time in about 2 months that i made any money at ralphs house playing poker. Few things i thought YOU should know. -matchbook romance is an amazing band - I look pretty sexy... - Its been 2 months and 2 days since i quit smoking... - Its been 2 hours since i had a beer :-P - I jammed with noah vella yesterday, it was pretty fun. Hes got some cool ideas. We might play together at the degenerates/track record show in cortland on febuary 5th... - Half past never is scheduled to play in marcellus on the 12th... - Troy is still the best movie ive seen... - Justyn is still a douche but i love him anyway... ha ha. Current Mood: blah (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
3:51 am	its cool i hate it when my brothers lie to me... especially something he could have told the truth to me about in the first place.... (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
12:32 am	Emerick road lyrics :-) hope you like COREY heffron Started out with the best of intentions all focused in the same direction After a few shows and a few critics, you were quick to jump to conclusions I don’t think we needed a genre change, just a helping hand… I’m sorry that you feel Like u were mis treated I hope that you know that You were everything I wanted in a band…..and I said I gave it my all but still you wanted more… I gave it my all but still you wanted more… I apologize to you matt I know this decision wasn’t easy Its hard to weigh friendships when it comes to bands and u think your best friend has the answer… Just remember when it comes back on me, I extended my arms and dismissed my dignity… And now I cant express The emotions that I feel You think the story is over But it is not and im pleased to say I’m living the dream and I don’t care what you say We’re living the dream with out you and it feels great…. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
2:35 am	ehhh... So its 2:35 am and I'm just getting home from work after getting called in on my day off. Sweet. Whats even sweeter is i have to be back to work in 8 hrs. YAY! Anyway, I figured it was about time for an update. But since the only ppl who apparently read this are carl and ashley, i dont know that I'll go into great detail on recent news since i talk to them almost everyday online. I am excited to say that we (half past never) have our first show since the new line up has taken place. We have decided to keep the following songs that the old line up played. 1. I'm not afraid 2. Should have left you in july 3. Full house Although im considering changing the name to "stamos is god (full house)" We also finalized some other new material. 1. Your smile is for everyone 2. Billy's song... I.E. Untitled as of now 3. Feathers two twelve 4. Emerick Road (what happened?) there are also a few others that we are still tinkering with. But seven songs down its good enough to play our first show back. Its in marcellius ny? Dont know where it is but we'll find it. February 12th is the date. I'm getting into rediculous shape. Most of you wont recognize me if you haven't seen my since graduation. I'm starting to feel better about things and myself. justyn is still a douche... texas hold em no longer consumes my life... ha ha. yeah right. til next time. -tones Current Mood: sleepy (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
9:50 pm	Lyrics Here are a few of my recent lyrics... just thought I'd post them. Cheer up emo girl Listen, how many times will it take how many times does your heart... need to break til you understand... yes your better then this, yes your better then him... I promise you will see better days once again. Just hop into your car, turn the radio on it doesn't matter how far you drive Just scream your lungs out to your favorite love and lost song just let it all out, you could have set yourself free all along.. At the end of the night and the end of the drive you'll feel better, I promise, I swear... endless conversations with you of topics long over due your stories no where near completed. please just let it go, please just let him go I promise you, your better off without him. Your trying hard just to be normal, but anyone can see your beauty lies in your caring, loving, amazing.... personality. I'm only 22 you say your high on life well guess what? I'm high on cocaine and to me right now, everything feels great so drown yourself in sorrows, proclaim the worst is still to come. For all i know tomorrow the world could end! So why stay straight edge? I pity you and others like you Who think its trendy to look down on me do you really think I give a fuck what corporate america thinks of me? And if its all the same to you, I'll just stick my middle finger in the air and shout "I dont give a fuck what you think cos I'm gonna do what I wanna do" Light up a ciggerette i insist! Please blow it in my face just one more time... Bush,Kerry,Nader,three assholes..different but all the same. will you please just pop some pills, watching you choke could be my novicane let me know what you guys think... i realize the second one is very different from songs i usually write... -tones (3 Comments |Comment on this)